I’m so excited to share all that I’m learning and discovering about myself in this journey. I’m always asking for opinions and critiques from family and friends…and [for the most part…hahaha] I listen to what they have to say when I ask for specific feedback…heck, I want brutal honesty!, and they give it to me!! 🙂
Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t have self-esteem issues that I haven’t dealt with, so what I’m about to say is somewhat illogical…as Spock would say! My mother and family have always been so supportive of whatever I do.They’ve always told me that I’m “good” and “talented” in art, BUT (oh, you knew that was coming…LoL) I haven’t always believed that about myself <—–that’s the illogical part!
After working on the drapery drawing, shown above, I truly believe, now, that what was lacking in me, was confidence. I had not been “guided” in the direction of my strengths in this “talent.” I had no idea what I was doing when I sat down to doodle or draw…this love of drawing began with a love of people (portraits, in particular) and clothing at a very young age. I pursued a degree in fashion design and merchandising. HOWEVER, I never followed through with it! I didn’t have the confidence to “JUST DO IT!” Now, I can certainly think of many excuses to cover up the fact that I wanted money and success upon graduation! HAHAHAHA, who doesn’t!!? Instead of working my way into the fashion design field, I recklessly [and I say that with humble shame] went into a field of work (insurance of all things), because I knew my way around an office much better than a design room!!! There was familiarity there…nothing could or would challenge me (I really believed that).
SOOOOOOOOOOOO…the point of today’s blog is: FOLLOW YOUR DREAM, even if you’re not confident in that moment!!! I say it quite loudly now!
I keep saying to myself, “mom knows best.” I believe, that God Almighty gives parents that “insight” into their children. They see in us what we have yet to see in ourselves. I don’t regret the many wonderful lessons I learned working at that family owned insurance company. Those lessons have served me well in this life. But how I ponder on the moments of sadness during those times, when I wished I had gone in the “right” direction! I could never figure out why I didn’t do it…….until now.
From this day forward…because I “discovered” this during this Analysis of Form class…I will go CONFIDENTLY into my work!
I will stand naked, before you, as if staring into a mirror, and I will CONFIDENTLY share it! I’m not afraid anymore!! AND THAT IS SO LIBERATING!!!
I’ve come to understand that human nature, in this time of technology-will-make-things-easy-era, is quite lazy. It’s the easy way out, if it comes easy! *LoL* I’ve always “goaled” to do my best in whatever I do, I just won’t do mediocre…this is MY best! How wonderful it is, when we muster up that extra umph to push ourselves [and we CAN!]…to work juuuuust a liiiittle bit harder, and get incredible results!
IF you haven’t already found your passion………..GO LOOK FOR IT! —–>and I mean RUN!!
If you have…….go nurture it!!
Thanks for stopping by!
May God shower your life with blessings!